An AIC of 5.8 with no lows!

I am almost at a non-diabetic range and I really just started "trying" again with the perfectionism and making sure I correct at lower numbers. The true blessing about this (because I have been in the 5's before with my a1c)? I don't ever have lows! Haven't had one in many, many months. They've been extremely rare over the last I'd say 2 years. So that's a 5.8 with no lows! I really am so hopeful that I won't have complications ever. And I feel my best numbers are still ahead of me.

I go on Facebook and I see diabetics defending their right to eat junk food and eat/drink processed sugar until their limbs have to come off. Living like they do must be...instead of a swear word I'll say "completely" exhausting. I never comment, but I see other people do, but they really can't be told. Unfortunately, a cold, hard fact is exogenous insulin, pens and pumps, do not compare to a pancreas. I'm extremely grateful for them, but I don't delude myself for one second into thinking it is a substitute. Winning the game of diabetes is all about discipline and, with insulin-dependence, strategy. Your life depends on it.

I love to cook and eat, but you won't see me ingesting anything that will spike my blood sugar. Ever. The problem is when you eat and drink processed sugar your entire waking life, it makes your body the perfect breeding ground for bad bacteria, fungi and parasites. These nefarious inhabitants want to survive and multiply, and they're a lot more intelligent than you might think. I think everyone should read This is your Brain on Parasites: How Tiny Creatures Manipulate Our Behavior and Shape Society by Kathleen McAuliffe. Just a little light Sunday reading. You might discover that what is triggering your desperate need to ingest sugar isn't really you, but something nefarious inside of you that thrives on high amounts of glucose. My next post is going to go into this in detail.

My dad would tell me he was proud of how I managed this disease, because he knew a lot of people who didn't care. When he said that, I thought to myself how can you not care? A deep sadness still sits in me thinking of people walking around with a fighting spirit that has flown away - their assertion to be truly alive and vibrant forever gone. There was a scene in the latest Matrix movie that I resonated with. Morpheous tells Neo, "Could be this is the first day of the rest of your life. But if you want it, you've got to fight for it." Neo says: "No, I'm done fighting." Morpheous goes on to say: "Are you?...I know you, because I know the only thing that still matters to you. I know it's why you're here, why you're still fighting, and why you will never give up." And of course it's always love that's worth fighting for. It reminds me of the line in Moulin Rouge: "Now tell me, Christian, what do we believe in? Freedom, beauty, truth and love."